I have failed 

Hello,

I came across this as one of my friends shared it on social media and I thought it sent a powerful message.

You can’t help but wonder. So many people, my work colleagues, my college friends, my boyfriend are starting uni. My old friends are traveling around the world. Everyone looks like they are living amazing lives. 

Then there is me. No uni, no a-levels, not travelling and especially over the last month I have been feeling rather sad and lonely. Social media portrays all these amazing lives. Nobody ever shows the truth, it’s always the good times, never the bad. But these protray the life that society deems as successful. 
Having lots of friends, going to uni, travelling, festivals. The only thing I can relate to is being in a relationship. But even then the media protrays this unrealistic ‘relationship goals’ which no relationship meeting this expectation. 
So this brings me back to the question. Have I failed?
By societies standards yes. I have less ‘proper friends’ then Sheldon Cooper. I don’t go to uni. I don’t travel much (though I would love to) and I hate festivals and events due to the crowds and noise. 
BUT
I have mental health problems. I have to overcome these challenges everyday. ADHD, OCD, aniexty and depression. I have suffered and survived 3 mental breakdowns at the age of 20 with my first being in 2013. I still attend counciling weekly. I am still on antidepressants and mood stablisers. 
But despite this I am able to trust and be in a long term relationship. I went back to school and got my GCSEs. I work full time and have recently been promoted to step up duty manager. I just moved out. A couple of years ago I couldn’t go anywhere over night without my mum. And now I have moved out and living independent from my parents. Something a few years ago we didn’t think would be possible. 
But most of all I AM ALIVE. Despite the amount of times I have wanted to end it all. 
So have I failed? No. For others these things might not seem like a big deal but for me and 1 in 3 people who suffer from mental health problems this is an achievement. Just getting out of bed some days and not hurting myself is an achievement. 
Everyone has their own struggles and things that aren’t an achievement for some are for others. We need to be kind to others as well as ourselves. We need to stop comparing ourselves to these ‘perfect’ lives portrayed online. We need to remember that it’s unrealistic. Nobody ever posts the crappy bits, it’s always the good bits. 
If you struggle with mental health like me and you often feel compared to others you have failed. Remember, you are one brave ass mother fucker! It takes amazing strength to fight when you don’t want to. Everyday you do that is a victory. 
My goal is to be more honest on social media. Not just post the good bits but make known the bad bits. A realistic social media account. I wonder how much it would change, if everyone was honest about their life on social media. Just a thought 
Caitlin Buckley 
#foodforthought #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #strength #itsoknottobeok #pleaseshare

Take care,

Dolphin xx

Random fact 

Hello,

Today I found something out that I thought was really interesting. 

Cats hearts beat twice as fast as ours! The smaller the animal the faster it beats.

I love chatting with people as you learn so much (thanks T.)

Take care,

Dolphin xx

Book review 

Hello,

So a couple of weeks ago I finished another book! My 11th this year. I’m super proud of this as I am a slow reader but this year have really got back into it.


This book was amazing. I really enjoyed the way Alaska’s story was slowly pieced together. 

It was quick to get into and I couldn’t put it down! 

By the end there were so many questions I wanted answered.
Have you read this? What did you think?

Take care, 

Dolphin xx